Sitting in a coffee shop. Large latte and a little laptop. Something I've loved the concept of for ages. Sitting and writing in a place like this. Of course it isn't perfect though. The advertised internet connection seems to be absent, so this will be posted when I get home. A rather grumpy seeming man has sat next to me, ruining the ambiance. I'm still getting used to the tiny keyboard, how do people type on the 701? Plus probably most importantly I have no idea what to write about.
Weird fragments from the end of a dream. There's me, a friend and two girls. I can't remember the details, who the friend or girls were or why I felt how I did. I was sat in an armchair, my legs pulled up to my chest, arms wrapped around my knees. I was shy, ashamed. Couldn't look at the girls, was turned away from them talking to the friend. Everyone was getting up to leave. Saying goodbye. There was a chance one of the girls was going to give me a hug as she left. Like always this kinda freaks me out, not good with contact but at the same time i long for it. I huddle there fearing and longing for her to come up behind me, bend down and give me a quick hug.
Then I can feel her behind me, close. You know when you can sense someone is close? Feel the presence of someone in the room. She is behind, above me. And the moment drags on. Something is weird. I open my eyes in the dark of my room. I can still feel someone there. I look up towards the foot of my bed and there she is. A woman is standing in my room looking down at me. I don't recognise her though she looks a little like an older version of Timea from work. Needless to say I'm rather disturbed by this. I want to call out, ask who the hell she is but I'm too freaked out. My eyes drift but she stays centered in my vision as if she was an afterimage caused by looking at a strong light source. She smiles, possibly winks but it's hard to tell as the image is distorting, stretching. Then is gone.
I try to go back to sleep. It's fairly early and I was up fairly late. But I can't keep my eyes closed. I keep looking around me to see if anyone is there. In the end I get up and turn the lights on. Great. That's all I need. Early morning hallucinations.
I should be getting a tiny bluetooth dongle off Jezz soon so I can modem this lappy up to my phone. Which is nice.
Weird fragments from the end of a dream. There's me, a friend and two girls. I can't remember the details, who the friend or girls were or why I felt how I did. I was sat in an armchair, my legs pulled up to my chest, arms wrapped around my knees. I was shy, ashamed. Couldn't look at the girls, was turned away from them talking to the friend. Everyone was getting up to leave. Saying goodbye. There was a chance one of the girls was going to give me a hug as she left. Like always this kinda freaks me out, not good with contact but at the same time i long for it. I huddle there fearing and longing for her to come up behind me, bend down and give me a quick hug.
Then I can feel her behind me, close. You know when you can sense someone is close? Feel the presence of someone in the room. She is behind, above me. And the moment drags on. Something is weird. I open my eyes in the dark of my room. I can still feel someone there. I look up towards the foot of my bed and there she is. A woman is standing in my room looking down at me. I don't recognise her though she looks a little like an older version of Timea from work. Needless to say I'm rather disturbed by this. I want to call out, ask who the hell she is but I'm too freaked out. My eyes drift but she stays centered in my vision as if she was an afterimage caused by looking at a strong light source. She smiles, possibly winks but it's hard to tell as the image is distorting, stretching. Then is gone.
I try to go back to sleep. It's fairly early and I was up fairly late. But I can't keep my eyes closed. I keep looking around me to see if anyone is there. In the end I get up and turn the lights on. Great. That's all I need. Early morning hallucinations.
I should be getting a tiny bluetooth dongle off Jezz soon so I can modem this lappy up to my phone. Which is nice.
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